I didn't sleep well at all last night. I kept dreaming/thinking of new post. Weird I know, I guess just trying to get the wording right and all...
My life the past almost 2 years has been full of drop offs and pick ups with the army. Playing mommy and daddy at the same time. So you would think that today would be no different from the other ones..Well today was that day. I dropped hubby off at his unit so he could go on his HOPEFULLY 3 weeks. There were many mixed emotions about this. Yes i am very sad he is going to be away. Like I said in the previous post, I don't do well without him. Well the last few weeks we have been hearing alot of "rumors" and well to tell you the truth none are good... One is defiantly better then the other one but man... we haven't even been together 9 months before being pulled apart. I know it is the "military thing", but it does suck.. The worse part about saying goodbye this time is that it might only be for the 3 weeks or I wont see him until next year and we wont know until he is down there and unable to return... Which means disney without him( he wont let me cancel the trip) and 2nd birthday without him.. So lets review, brennen will be turning 2 in aug and his daddy was away last year and missed it and might miss this one... I told him I would rather option 2 but if they could wait and start in aug. We had so much happening in july that he needs to be here. Which means since we want #2 we will get #1( he was told pretty much one or the other) I hate the waiting game and always being so fearful. Just the thought of anything happening to him or our little family pretty much sends me into a panic attack.... I am a "glass pretty much empty kinda person".. So with that being said i'm sure you know how i'm feeling.. It is just really hard to feel ok about either one of these options when the man in charge is a joke.. With that being said i would usually start counting down until he got home but since I don't have a return date for him it is kinda hard to count down.... lets just hope it goes super fast.
Well to pass the time I am babysitting a little boy that is the same age as brennen for a few days. Next week I am going to meet with the advisor at the school I plan on attending in the fall. I am in the process of reading the harry potter books. I love the movies so I figured why not read the books. Then I plan on reading the true blood books.. Since I LOVE the show.
Well enough complaining for now. Hope to hear news soon....
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