pool days

We puffy heart ourselves some days spent by the pool :)
Happy Thursday everyone.

day one

So today I finally did it.

I started running today, and to top it off I went and swam some laps..

I have finally hit my breaking point with the weight gain. I have put on about 7 lbs and I am tired of it. So i am cutting my calories and eating smaller portions, also doing a little exercise. I am going to get the 7 lbs off but im hoping to get a total of 20 lbs off. I would be very happy with that.

So lets hope I don't fall off the wagon. So here is to day one.....

new friends

We had a play date yesterday with a friend of mine from high school. She has a little boy a few months younger then brennen, so I figured there might be a few fights but nothing huge.. I was so wrong, the boys LOVED each other. Brennen keeps talking about him and visa versa. I am so glad. We took them swimming at the pool down the street, from 10-2. I am beyond burnt and brennen got a little sun but nothing bad.. I am so glad we got to get together. Brennen and I both needed a play date. I haven't actually gone out and hung out with a friend in so long. So it was really nice. I am looking forward to more in the future. Here are some pictures of the afternoon.

it took 2 hours for his friend to actually do this,he was very unsure of the water.

In deep conversation during snack time.

my big boy swimming

Shows can really hit home when your not expecting it

So I have been watching secret life of the american teenager since it stared. I know I have missed a few here and there, since the drama some times seems so unreal. Well I haven't missed this season since adrian was pregnant and getting married. Last night they did the season finale and adrian lost her baby, to Im going to say still birth even though they never said the words. I have very mixed feelings about this. I think it is great that they have shown the other side of things but to me it was really upsetting. I know these things happen and they are terrible. But I just can't shake what happened and the sadness of it all.. She said that "she felt weird" I also had that weird feeling. Where your belly that is normally active and full of life is just a belly. Like nothing is there kinda feeling. It is scary.

When I was pregnant with brennen I worked at a daycare. I woke up in a hurry since I had to come in for an earlier shift then normal and had been outside with the kids in the heat. While outside we were talking about the baby and then I got the "weird feeling" I assumed that is what caused all of what im about to say. Once we returned to the room I started feeling very sick, which was not unusual for me since I had morning sickness for 34 out of 39 weeks. So I figured this was just one of those days where it hung around longer then usual. Well I ran to the bathroom and threw up, several times. Then of course I had to use the restroom and there was blood. It kinda freaked me out, but I went back to my room and told the other lady I worked with what happened. She asked me all kinds of questions, well then I realized I had not felt brennen move all day and it was now almost lunch time. I had been so busy since I was at work earlier then usual. Thats when I started to really worry. I called D and he said call your dr then call me back. So I did that, while BALLING my eyes out I talked to a nurse and she said to come in now. I was afraid to tell me boss, but she over heard me on the phone and drove me herself. She was to scared to let me drive. She is so wonderful. Called D on the way and relayed what the nurse said. Once there they moved me right to an ob room on the delivery floor. They hooked me up, where we heard that sweet little sound of his heart beat, I felt better knowing he was ok. They pumped me full of fluids. Next I was off to an ultra sound to figure out what happened. The ultra sound took like 30 mins. They looked at EVERYTHING. We were super nervous. And all we were told was I was anemic, I had very low iron, my blood sugar had dropped(which caused the throwing up) and that I was carrying a big baby. He was 100% healthy. We were so happy. Now I never thought twice about that day since it happened. I added it to the piles of future hospital visits I racked up for dehydration during that summer.

But since watching that episode now all I can think about was the really worried faces and tones of voices those nurses and dr's had that day. I remember that ultra sound tech not letting us look at the screen while she did her work. How she would never talk to us until it was done. How the nurses made many notes when I first got there. Was that what they thought happened?? Did they think he was "still"??? Watching the show I cried, not just because it was sad but because that might have been me. I know that might sound stupid to say but I didn't know at the time how serious what was happening was.

I look at brennen today so happy that we have him and how that one day could have changed our whole lives. How things would have been different. I am so thankful for him.

then and now

So I just noticed that every year on this day I take these pictures and Im glad, we love our military. I hope that I will continue this since you can see how much he has changed over the years. And he is so flipping cute :)

FIRST YEAR: 9 months


LAST YEAR: 1 year & 9 months


THIS YEAR: 2 years & 9 months


He has grown up so much in a ALMOST 3 years. Where has my little baby gone???

showing our love

crazy times

So I have so many ideas going on right now.

*I am planning a huge outside wonder pets themed 3rd birthday party for brennen

*I want to revamp EVERY room.

*I want to start running and doing zumba everyday

*I need to start eating healthier

*I want to get brennen on a schedule(yes almost 3 and no schedule)

*I want to do a half day pre school thing with brennen at home, done by me.. SAVING MONEY...

*I need to enroll for the fall semester of school

*I have a family vacation to get ready for, with family photos being done.

*I want to get a family photo shoot done before he deploys


Mainly I am trying to do everything at once. I have so much going on and then a husband who is gone everyday of the week, drills on weekends and him starting to "mob". Oh and he might be getting a new job. He goes for the final interview on tuesday, and he is super excited/nervous. I have mixed feelings about this...

pros: home everyday, pay raise

cons: it is dangerous

If he does get it he will be gone for a month right from the start but after that he will be home... So I guess we will see..

so i guess one thing at at time.. Until next time...